Well I started work today. It was only paperwork and orientation, but it was really great to be there. My boss is super nice and flexible. I hope I can get along with everyone and that they will like me and trust me. Tomorrow is my first official day on the "job". I am training for 3 days, then I will be on my own. My hours are 3:30-8:30 am. I know that sounds rough but actually I am really looking forward to it. I will have all day and evenings off with Remington and will only ever need a sitter for about 2 hours. Plus, I haven't worked in 2 years, so this will be an easy transition until I am ready for full-time.
Jeremy is coming to visit this weekend. He is really excited to see Remington. I am glad that we were able to talk like adults and work it out that he come. I know he wanted to badly but felt pressured not too. Seeing Remington is what is most important. NOTHING else. NO ONE else. We are going to do things as a family too. I have the weekend off and we plan on spending it together. I know people probably won't understand but we are still a family. I want Remington to know that he has us both at all times. I think it will be fun. We are finally in a good place with each other. We still love each other and want to be a family. Despite what he did, we were in a bad place and really needed some time apart. We are both happy and enjoying being apart. I have been able to do a lot and not feel guilty about it. I have seen friends and family I haven't been able to see in awhile. It has been just fantastic. And I really feel like we are both where we need to be, right now. Neither of us know what the future holds. All we know is that Remington is OURS. He connects us and we will ALWAYS be a family. No one will ever come between that.
And lastly, I want to share another special moment I had with Remington today. The poor little guy is cutting FOUR teeth! He had a rough night last night and was up super early, burning up. I had to go to work and when I finally came home, he was asleep. He slept for 3 hours and I layed in bed with him the whole time. When he woke up, he was very quiet. I could tell he was in pain. So I picked him up and didn't put him down. I came to the freezer and got him an "isicle". Brought him to the couch and just sat with him on my lap facing me. He was so content and quiet and trust me, this boy is never quiet. He sucked on the popsicle and just smiled at me each time, offering me a bite. No one else was here and no music or tv was on. His sweet little face was so flushed and his eyes were so heavy, but he was so happy. I cherished every second of that moment. I am the one he loves more than anyone. I am his favorite. I am the love of his life. So is he. He is all those things to me as well. I love him so much it hurts.
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