Keeping busy.

I can't believe it's been over a week since I posted.

Time seems to just be creeping by. Before all of this, I used to pray for time to stand still so that we could have more time with him when he was home (which was rare). But now I just want this all to be over. I want answers. Things have been super confusing lately. Things he says, things I think. I just don't know where things stand. But everyday that passes, I feel stronger and more confident. I really believe at this point that divorce is the ultimate answer. It may not happen for awhile, but being apart is best. I feel like I don't even know him anymore. He is a completely different person. The hardest part of that is, that I know he is better than all this. I know he is better than tearing apart his world for a temporary feeling. Because come on... we all know this will NOT last ;) But I will continue to pray for him to make better choices and eventually be able to see the wrong he is doing and make it right. We may not be together anymore, but I want only good things for him. Especially as a father. Remington deserves him. He deserves to have a father in his life and a role model. I just hope and pray that he can realize that someday too.

On to a more positive note:

My trip down south was AMAZING! My aunts and my cousin took such good care of me. I couldn't even ask for a better support system. I am sure most of you saw my pictures on Facebook of New Orleans and the ocean. It was so awesome. I had never been to either place and really hope to plan a trip back there soon. Next time with Remington by my side.

Thank you all for your support. I love you more than you know.