Four times is four times too many!

Jeremy is deployed... again. This is number 4. And the anxiety and sadness is just as bad. But thankfully this is a short one. He will be home much sooner and we will FINALLY be a family again. I cannot wait. Before he left we agreed that we are both so happy with the place we are at. He is really trying to change the things he needs to, to make us better and so am I. We both acknowledge our efforts and keep each other going. I think this is the strongest we have EVER been.

Last weekend we met halfway for a night and it was so much fun. Our hotel had an indoor pool and Remington loved every moment of it. It was so needed and perfect for all three of us. Jeremy and I held each other so tight as we said goodbye. I knew in that moment that we were good. That we were right where we need to be again. That we were a family. He told me it scares him that he almost lost me. And truth be told, it scares me too. I don't know how I would have moved on and I am so thankful that I didn't have to.

I don't really have much to update. Work is going good. It is a very challenging job, but I must admit to loving it most days. These kids have opened my eyes to a whole new world. I love all of the experience, knowledge and memories I am gaining from all of this. The Lord has a reason for all he does and I try to remember that and stay grateful for this, even though it caused so much pain. I am a new person with a new outlook on life... all because of this. I can't wait to see what OUR future holds.

Colder weather is approaching.

Wow. Been awhile, huh? Boy has this last month FLOWN by! Jeremy and I have been together for almost a month now. He was on leave and it was amazing. It has been the best time of my life recently. Him and Remington had a blast together. R and I just got back from our last weekend with him for awhile. He is about to go overseas and we won't see him for a couple months :( I got so used to having him around again and now I am sad again. But thankfully it's just a short time away. Then we will have the holidays with him and move back there sometime at the beginning of the year.

Jeremy and I have become so close again. It has been so nice. We are taking things slow, but very seriously. I am finally starting to forgive him and trying to move on from what happened. We both want the same things now and we are so positive about all of it. Remington just turned 2 last week (and had an awesome Yo Gabba Gabba party) and I think it was a very eye-opening time for both of us. We are a family and being together and happy is what is most important right now. We even planned our 6-year wedding anniversary trip this year :) It is in December and we want to get away for a few days, just the 2 of us. I can't believe it's already been that long! Where did those days go? I feel like we were just 16, riding around together in this small town. Crazy!

And for those of you wondering... My job is going really well. I am working at an elementary school and it's very rewarding.

Anyway... I hope all of my friends and family are doing good. And I ask for your prayers as him and the rest of his guys deploy. It is always such an anxious time and I hope my mind can be at ease. Working and taking care of Remington is really going to help pass the time. I love you all!