Well we should be thankful all year round of course, but this time of year is, like a lot of folks, my favorite. It is a chance to reflect on the past few months and realize all the blessings we have and what we would like to forget. Cough Homewreckers cough ;)
Rem and I will be heading back to Kentucky in just a little over a week. Jeremy will be there shortly after. My last few days at my job were great. They were sad to see me go and wished us well. It felt nice to work again and have a life outside being a mother. I plan on working again once we get moved and settled in. It made me feel normal. Not that I don't love staying home with my son, but I like to have other people around and contribute to the work force and help provide for our family. I know Jeremy appreciated it too, even though he is glad I quit so that we can be together again.
These next few days are going to be rough. I have LOVED my life here. When I was forced to move back here I never thought I would get to this point. I felt like my life was over and ruined at the hands of another human being. Never again will I let anyone decide my path for me. I could have stayed here and lived my life with Rem, I know that now. I am so much stronger than I was 5 months ago. And for that, I am thankful. I have learned more about myself and others than I ever thought possible. I have learned that people will hurt you and not care, as long as they are happy. I have learned that my family and friends can heal me. And that I NEED them. I will never ever take them for granted again. And I hope they all realize that. Even if I don't find enough time in my crazy days to tell them. I would love to say that I wish none of this ever happened but I would be lying to myself. I know what I want now and I am not going to settle for anything less.
Jeremy keeps telling me he will never let me go again. That is comforting. It makes me feel special again. I feel like we are fresh again. We can be honest with each other better than we ever have been. And we now see the boundaries that we need to not cross. We both understand each other's need for space and love. I finally feel like we are in a good place. We are still going to take things slow and try not to plan things. We rushed everything we did before this. Even having a child. We are blessed to have him but need to slow down, for him too. He needs a stable home, parents he can trust, and parents that love each other too. I want him to look up to Jeremy and I and want good things for himself too.
Anywho... I will update you all when Jeremy comes home. I always get nervous when it's on this downward slope. I can't wait to see him again and kiss him :) Remington is going to FLIP when he sees him! I will definetly take pictures so my Facebook friends, be looking for them SOON!
