Well not much has changed since last time. I am still hurting, very very badly. I am starting to realize that I am much better off without him, but now the problem is getting the picture of the family I had envisioned out of my head. I had so many hopes and dreams for us. I now know that he is no longer going to be in them, and figuring out how to move on is my next step. I have given up trying to make it work. He wants her and a life with her... so he can have it. I will do everything in my power to make sure Remington knows him and that they are close, but there is only so much I can do. The rest is in hands. I am still in awe that after all him and I went through as kids that he just let Remington go like that. I think he has a lot of changes he needs to make and one day he will have a wake-up call, I just know it. I just hope it isn't too late. I continue to pray for strength not only for me but for him as well.
On a positive note... My Aunts have asked me if I want to join them this weekend on a little "ladies" getaway. We are going to drive down to Mississippi and see the ocean. My mom told me I should just go and enjoy myself. So that is what I will do. I need to get away. I need distraction and fun. We are heading out tomorrow and I will post again when I get back.
I thank you all for your continuing love and support. I would be lost without it.
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