The beginning of the end.

I need to start this. I need an outlet for everything I am feeling. Even if no one ever reads this. I need it.

I married my husband 5.5 years ago. We were best friends. We went to prom together. We began our life, had a blast, and grew up together. I was committed to him and even stayed behind and waited for him through 3 deployments. In 2009, we decided to expand our family. Remington was born in August and my life was forever changed. Life was great. We were happy, we were a family. Then Monday, my world came crashing down.

How can he do this? How can he give up a LIFE. I have no choice but to move home. I don't want to. I love my house. I love my couch. I love my DVR. I love going on drives every weekend with my two boys. I am being punished and I didn't do one thing wrong. I was a good wife.

Where to go from here: I am leaving Sunday. I am moving back to my mother's. I am taking our son, the love we made together. Remington is my world and everything now. I want to move on. I want to do something for myself to remind me that I didn't deserve this. Remington and I are going to have a blast the rest of our lives together. I always pictured him next to us, but now I can't. It's ok. I am ready. I am ready. I am ready. I do deserve more. Someone is going to be very very lucky one day when we come into their lives.

Let's do this Remington. Just you and me buddy.