Ok, Ok, I caved :)

I can't believe how many messages I got about deleting this. I decided to bring it back because I feel connected to all of you that read this. And I am going to leave up my last post because it was my true feelings at the time and I do not believe in regret.

Long story short, we are back together. We are going to attempt to work out our marriage and we are determined to make it last. After all of that happened 2 weeks ago and my posting about it... things changed. We talked a lot of things out and I went down there for a weekend to see how things were. He ended up coming back with me since he is on leave right now. It has been nice to be a family again. Remington is so happy when he's around. He is happy anyway, but with his dad, it's a different kind of love. I am sure all of you parents understand. And if you're wondering about my job and what we are going to do.. it's simple. I am going to stay here living with my mother and work. Jeremy and I have a lot of debt and this extra income will help a ton. Then at the end of the school year, Rem and I will move back there with him. We don't want to jump right into things just yet anyway. Taking it slow and learning to appreciate our time together will help mend the wounds between us.

I know a lot of you won't understand this. And that's fine. But I hope that you will put yourself if my shoes. Imagine the love you have for the person you are with. We have a history and a family and people make mistakes. He needs to learn to forgive himself before I can forgive him. Forgetting is a whole other issue though. That is what I am having a hard time with. But everyone keeps telling me just give it time. And that is what I have to do.

I don't want to make this some long, drawn out post. I love you all so much and hope that you can continue to support me.